its been a long time since the last

how do I begin with this shit... second to none which is first.. If you want to know what is this all about, continue reading.
I can't hold it any longer; it need to burst out of this head.. And I don't even know where to start... A total piece of shit.. Dam why I keep on telling that this is just a shit? what does shit means anyway? ok, the hell I care about shits.....
Telling your pain to others shows your weakness. Although you'll feel relieved after doing it, at the end you'll just realize that its not a good idea telling your verse to others, especially when you told stories to those people who is not at the same wave length as yours... . . . . ok where am i going. whats the point of this shit.. why did I..ahhh.. Ok this is the point .

I just forgot what I really wanted to say...

I think I'll just goin to tell a story.. Well, this is my blog; I can do anything about this. Am I right? hehe.. Cool, I'm talkin to myself again..

yes yow yes yow.. nyahahahaha

It all starts with a simple thought of ahhmmm... yeah thats it.

what the f*** do I want to tell you?? Can you tell me what it is??? will ya? please?
I can't just let it out.. OHH CRAP!!!! this is very frustrating,, i just let my fingers press each button on the keyboard...
abcdea;lskdjfkajsdfaabcdeabnkkbsanaplakoalsdkfjls..

... Hmm.. the wind blows.. and it is speaking.. I wish i can talk like wind. so that I can understand what it says...

You know what? I'll tell you something that everyone knows, but only few dares to take a closer look at it..
try this.. if you're living far from urban areas, much better.. During a night, go outside and sit somewhere you can. you may stand or lay down on the ground... you may close your eyes and listen, or stare somewhere, to the dark skies with few light of the heavenly bodies or in the wilderness of trees or grasslands... Think of nothing if you can. Remember when you are just a child and almost everything remains a mystery in your little brain. The feeling of enthusiasm of guessing what lies ahead... Don't think of anything as you can.. . . . . (Well even the process of not to think is a form of thinking.. hehe, just don't think).... Then, feel the dark night around you. In your head, Remove all your attachment to the material world. Make your self feel that you are one with the earth, atmosphere, insects, and everything that you know that is around you... As time goes by, If you are doing it correctly, you'll notice something.... The wind will try to speak, the stars will reveal a message, you'll feel the soul of the earth.. The harmony of everything.. At the end, by common sense, by your experience, the message will be revealed in a form which you'll understand without words. And only you can understand it on your own way... . . yes it's true! trust me! ows maniwala? oo nga promise .. peks.. hehehe.. utut m..

pambihira.. I feel enlightened.. hwow! writing a blog is sure is fun!