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The truth..

"What is the truth?" is one of the example of questions arise on our society nowadays. Because of the continous discoveries on the planet, people gain greater knowledge to reason out things. We can now easily determine which are myths, legends, and facts. And spreading information and words of wisdom can now easily be done by just a few clicks. Thanks to the advance technology and especially to the Internet. Now, we can't easily believe on things which are lacking of evidence and proof. Of course.

As a truth seeker, one aspect you should have is to be an open minded... and to have this, you need to learn that your own personality and belief system is uniquely developed from time to time and affected by the environment where you grew up... Your present or current personality which is you, is only the result of your past experiences: this are the things that happened to you, the things that are taught to you, obtain from school, parents, church, mass media, etc... Now, realizing this, you'll notice that your personality is just your brain neurons which are arranged that way, and which is the cause of your manner of thinking... And this personality of yours may be your advantage or it may serve as a prison for you to not know what really are truth behind things..

Lets back to the question, “What is the truth?”.. to answer this question... lets first proceed to this website http://www.truthism.com/ <----- click the link if you have time... That website contains I don't know how to describe it, but it's interesting. Just analyze it on yourself.

If you've been to that website, what they are really telling us is that they can make you believe and agree with them in some ways. Even in what we call ridiculous things. Yes, Aliens? It really somewhat sound ridiculous, but with the writer's knowledge about psychology and human manipulation... They can make you think and furthermore the worst is, they can make you believe... If they can do that, then what more if the indoctrination is done by more powerful and much educated men? Won't it be much easier for them to make you believe in a ridiculous dogma?

With this wise men's cleverness and a few spacial effects, miracles, holy emblems... They can really make you believe. And we can't deny that this powerful men are just scattered around the globe, and continuously seeking and gaining control of weaker preys.

Whatever the truth is.... Just remember, your choice is your music, your life.... and don't forget to dance with the rhythm of it.. Do what you can do, and act if you can act.. This is your life and this is your legend... Just do it..

Big..

Hi jeff... why are you staring at my monitor? and you bigboy?> why are you also doing the same?
eh?

by the way... the last time I wrote something about this is I can't remember.. so.. thats it..

It does make sense isn't it? every time you down.. you can't make it right. and that makes two larger than one.. yeah..

This is just nothing, another piece of crap I'm making to empty my thoughts//
penguin/? what penguin? did I spell it right? Pating?

Ok... thats all for now..

They say: the brain never stops working. until you are about to say something important..

its been a long time since the last

how do I begin with this shit... second to none which is first.. If you want to know what is this all about, continue reading.
I can't hold it any longer; it need to burst out of this head.. And I don't even know where to start... A total piece of shit.. Dam why I keep on telling that this is just a shit? what does shit means anyway? ok, the hell I care about shits.....
Telling your pain to others shows your weakness. Although you'll feel relieved after doing it, at the end you'll just realize that its not a good idea telling your verse to others, especially when you told stories to those people who is not at the same wave length as yours... . . . . ok where am i going. whats the point of this shit.. why did I..ahhh.. Ok this is the point .

I just forgot what I really wanted to say...

I think I'll just goin to tell a story.. Well, this is my blog; I can do anything about this. Am I right? hehe.. Cool, I'm talkin to myself again..

yes yow yes yow.. nyahahahaha

It all starts with a simple thought of ahhmmm... yeah thats it.

what the f*** do I want to tell you?? Can you tell me what it is??? will ya? please?
I can't just let it out.. OHH CRAP!!!! this is very frustrating,, i just let my fingers press each button on the keyboard...
abcdea;lskdjfkajsdfaabcdeabnkkbsanaplakoalsdkfjls..

... Hmm.. the wind blows.. and it is speaking.. I wish i can talk like wind. so that I can understand what it says...

You know what? I'll tell you something that everyone knows, but only few dares to take a closer look at it..
try this.. if you're living far from urban areas, much better.. During a night, go outside and sit somewhere you can. you may stand or lay down on the ground... you may close your eyes and listen, or stare somewhere, to the dark skies with few light of the heavenly bodies or in the wilderness of trees or grasslands... Think of nothing if you can. Remember when you are just a child and almost everything remains a mystery in your little brain. The feeling of enthusiasm of guessing what lies ahead... Don't think of anything as you can.. . . . . (Well even the process of not to think is a form of thinking.. hehe, just don't think).... Then, feel the dark night around you. In your head, Remove all your attachment to the material world. Make your self feel that you are one with the earth, atmosphere, insects, and everything that you know that is around you... As time goes by, If you are doing it correctly, you'll notice something.... The wind will try to speak, the stars will reveal a message, you'll feel the soul of the earth.. The harmony of everything.. At the end, by common sense, by your experience, the message will be revealed in a form which you'll understand without words. And only you can understand it on your own way... . . yes it's true! trust me! ows maniwala? oo nga promise .. peks.. hehehe.. utut m..

pambihira.. I feel enlightened.. hwow! writing a blog is sure is fun!

the truth

currently... i want to write something because I'm afraid of all this changes happening to me. And I want to put a record of my current status so that I can view it for future reference..

What is the truth? how can we say that something is right and wrong?
I know common sense is one main skill to use in this kinds of questions. But a person grows depends on his environment and it blah blah blah saka na nga lang demet

my

Unique

Naaa. We're all same humans,
arranged in different atomic structure.
With the same chemical compositions..
So why bother? just live our lives..

this would be a farewell for a blog without readers..

haha!

just another day at the office

again,. another day. I learned new things and forget the older ones.. . . . how nice..
my main reason in writing is: for you to have fun and try to make you impress, but i don't think I shouldn't try it anymore, cause I already did making fun of me . didn't I ? (haha)
If I could only use that very powerful command here: "the copy paste" , then I could do a better job than this.
Did you thought of that? all you need to do is very simple: highlight and copy your thoughts from your head then paste it here.. Isn't it great? haha lol.

June 4, 2009. . not really the real date you wrote it.

pundong2@yahoo.com
[
-kind-
-makulit-
-patient-
-a guy who knows wat the word RESPECT means and knows how to..
-yung funny,may sense of humor-
-thoughtful-
-caring-
-hindi masyadong goodluking pero may dating-
-hindi ka papaiyakin..
-simple but rock-
-astig-
-brave, kaya kang ipaglaban..^^-
-tall-
-sweet-
-outgoing-
-not KJ-
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I just copied this from a beautiful chick at friendster..

actually Im.. YEAH!!
YEAH!!

enunciation and resiliency are one of the skills that should be improve..
YEAH?

well since everyone tells something about their selves.. why shouldn't I? this is me. i'm yeah.. thats all thank you.. do I need to elaborate myself? of course not.. so here it goes, my name is Theodore James B. Munar.. I came from my mother, just like you. My parents got my name from a name of a movie director during their youthful times.. Theodore James.. hhyaa right. even when I was a child, I'm asking my self why did they gave me this weird name. There are lots of other names scattered out there! like ahm... jose, lito, bong, michael, richard, juan, piping,..
well..I think it doesn't matter anyway.. haha.. and besides, Theodore James sounds cool sometimes!.. like when introducing my self; Hi! my name is James, Theodore James!. just like james bong. haha.. Well right now im 20 yrs. old. I don't have favorite color, food, books, place, games, music, shirt, pants, movie etc.. having favoritism will make your life boring you know? (about those favorites ko sa taas? hayaan nyu na, hehe)

Earlier before,I had read an article about mental break downs or some sort of.. and I conclude that I have psychosis... well, I think it's just alright.. many weird thoughts entered my mind, I often found my self talking to myself.. I had fun, until one night I started to hear a voice out of nowhere. and it doesn't even sound like my own voice!.. holy crap! It chills me to the bones!.. then I started to realize that it's not fun at all, being psychotic.. (even while typing this I feel cold around my neck. I wish I could punch unseen spirits).. well anyway, much more of me? of course no one can put all of himself in one piece of
(what do you call this?) monitor.
Well of course I can do that. but I won't do that.... hmm.. much more of me is.. more often I like what almost every body dislikes, just to be unique in some ways. I like martial arts, bug watching, running, hunting, fishing, lurking, and syempre anings. I also like beating my little big brother.. i like anime before, specially when I was in elementary. It even influence my way of thinking, character and personality.. but since now everyone likes anime and reading mangas (it's supposed to be eaten), Im not that interested unlike before. its so childish, in my opinion; for example animes like bakugang brawler, biba man, rock star exe, baby blade, crush gear, soids, yugi yow! bigi mon, solo mon, pero i like pokemon.. go pikachu! saka yung baka the grappler! the best.. astig dun si yongiro puma lear e.. meron din ako napanood ung samurai seven ba un? saka ung virtual fighter( may pitong di pangkaraniwang bituin sa langit at ayon sa alamat ang mga special child lng ang nakakakita neto) something like that.. cool!!. hehe

When it comes to talent.. I got lots of it, and i don't even know what to develop first. so I end up of not choosing one talent to master.. XD. How brilliant I was..
I like to answer the biggest questions in life, and answering it by looking at the horizon.. questions like, "why are we here?" the answer is very simple, "it's because, our parents love each other and it so happened that they are fertile!" they are the cause of our existence.. hehe.. maybe you've got a question? feel free to ask..
and I'm free to answer it with all my heart..

this would be enough as for now I think.. this is what i tell you.. i'm sure i'm not the first impression you saw.. I want to be an action star.. or just to be somebody someday..

fucking gay!

October 20, 2008 . . . yeah!!

hihihihihi wow im writing a blog. ehemehem test mic

Well there are many thoughts that I think I should write and I want to share with the whole world..... hahaha nakaktawa mukang tanga.

Thats the reason why Im doing this. And.. yeah thats it.

Im a shit! whos interested in reading a loser's blog!? well if you do.. you better read this. Shit! Bullshit! I am a born loser so what? thats life. They maybe laughing at me, but they don't know I also laugh at them.

So I'm calling my self a loser? I think I'm just so conscious about my self, I feel shit thinking this way. I'm so concern of people what may say about me?? What the hell I was thinking?? who am I an Actor? an Artist? thats shit! man. Self centered Bitch, Im just a dust in this world just like you. The world will continue its spin no matter what happen to us. I think this is the reason why I can't show my self to others? what do you think? Im too self centered.

''Every one change'' good thing I know my weakness, but only some as for now.

hehehe charing!! actually I want to say something much better than this. bakit ganun mas astig kapag nasa isip ko lang. ok practise pa.. potek yan habang nag susulat ako iniisip ko kung anu sasabihin ng magbabasa. EDI ALA DIN PALA, PANU KO MASASABI UNG NASAKIN KUNG HANGANG DITO CONSCIOUS AKO?? haha. cguru masmaganda kung kunwari may kausap nlng ako no?? tama next time nlng katamad din pla mag ganto.

October 22, 2008 at 4:17 am (remember the dates mate)

hello there,,,.,., yo wassup yyuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

ahhhmmm ahh ehhh akala mo ha ala ko masasabe ?? yeah.

When I was young I was small, there was a time that Im acting as a NINJA!! what the hell was that??! but now I don't do ninja stuffs anymore. Television influenced my way of thinking when I was a kid specialy anime(well as for now im still a kid) ninjas do exist a long time ago in a far away land like telly tubbies . WTF, I hate naruto! they are not ninja they are magicians doing a lots of magic! kabooom. www.entertheninja.com if you want to learn about NINJA! yan tunay na ninja! ninjaninjahan haha kakatawang site yan Freak's webpage. And if you want to learn NINJITSU www.ashidakim.com another Ninja page. hahah

I learned ninja stuff during my highschool years because of the influence of television and other mass media specialy internet. The techniques,meditation,history, the Art. And lot of times I think that I just wasted my time freaking out with those . When I look at the others I see the difference, the way of thinking,the way they talk, socializing with the others etc etc. I'm the silent type I am the shadow I am the dark! [or just a shy type] I can't make a conversation long when I'm talking with a nonclose person. I screwed my highschool days damn!. Sometimes I feel superior when I look with the other guys around because I have an unusual skill and sometimes I feel weird which is true I gues.

''GET A LIFE!'' one of the phrase that I learned in the internet, people in the internet use this word when giving a comment usually in a video where the person that made the video seems to be doing many nonsense things.

Get a life! thats what I should do! (buti nalang hindi na ninja hilig ko. Iba na muay thai na! hehe) (-_-) tapus

hanga ko sa mga taong magaling gumamit ng sentence saka malawak yung vocabulary. correct ninyu spelling ko a

dear diary

It's raining, while eating lunch.. and at the carenderia, there's a stranded foreigner beside me, talking with a fellow filipino. The foreigner speaks so strange due to the fact that he got different accent unlike ours of course.

In my head, something tells me to join their conversation, without any good reason at all. So, after I'd finished my meal - I ask the foreigner "excuse me, where you from?"
then the foreigner replied - "I'm from amerika.. at California." Trying my best to act naturally I say, "So, what brings you here?" a long pause from the american and, " mmm. I'm sight seeing!" with a great smile from the stranger's face. He also told me that he wants to visit Mabini's house and the nonstop rain prevents him from doing so, Making him stranded..
Then after that two few sentence I made, I stand up and paid my bill.. Well - I'm not used to those kinds of scenarios. So, I don't know what to do next. My vocabulary seems to hide during that time with the american.. haha.. without even saying good bye or any farewell, I just left them there..

Until I realize that, that moment is the chance for me to practice spoken english. all the things that I wanted to say just came in the moment that i left them.. Oh, what a crap.. I just wasted the chance.

thoughts of my existence
through words i try to express
for you to share
not to misinterpret.
- blog


what it feels like to be in your position?
what it feels like to be in the others state of thinking?
what it feels like to be you, not me?
do other people also think of this kinds of stuffs that I had in my mind?
why am I here?
what if I'm not existing? does it make difference? I must be very lucky to exist.
i think there's a purpose of me being here..

I remember this are the questions I ask myself when i was...... i think in grade 3 elementary.
As I recall it was early morning, when I'm walking my way to school, every time at the same spot near the gate, The thought, the questions, often pop in this little head of mine.
By that time, what I answer or telling myself is "hm. I'm still young. Maybe there's much more to happen while growing up" then i continued my life as a child.
And now, I'm 20yrs of age.. I learned a lot. More than an average man can, I may say. But the truth is, this knowledge wouldn't be sufficient enough. What I have is a few drops of everything.
that makes me weak, but through weakness I gather my strength.

(just like before.. I'm trying to tell whats all in this head.. but, something blocks my way to do so, those are: etc. i can't even mention it.. Am I a, . . . but I don't want to think that I'm a dumb.. oh crap.. hahaha)


there is this song I can't fully understand when I was a child.. It's a song of Britney..
here is the chorus: Stronger than yesterday
now its nothin' but my way
my lonliness ain't killing me no more
i...im stronger

what does she mean by being strong? - I can't see any bulky muscles in her body during that time. . - Until I realise, while growing up.. .
I was a, - kind a stupid to think that way..
well at least I understand it now... haha.

until next time. smell ya!




well Britney looks strong here. isn't she?

unstoppable

hi. its been a long time since I wrote a blog.. what the heck! I even forgot my English!. well. lets continue, shall we?

ahmmm. where are we? oh.. I'm here at the computer shop in Philippines! mabuhay!

I like Filipinos you know? yeah// cause I'm a Filipino ofcourse.
Let me describe you the characteristics of my fellow filipinos:
1. they are shit! what I mean is. they suck!!
2. filipinos are easy going! isn't it great? happy go lucky morron bastards!
3. Filipinos are cute! pogi in Tagalog(Filipino language). also there are beautiful bitches anywhere here in the firipin. wakarimasen!! maraking burate!
4. the only thing I really appreciate about filipinos are... etc.
5. Filipinos are good.
6. Filipinos are bad.
7. Filipinos live in Philippines.. but you can also find Koreans here, lots of them. even Chinese specially in china town.. You can also find fellow foreigners here in Philippines.
8.etc..
9. overall Filipinos are great and outstanding.. don't mess with a mess.. unless you want to make your life colorful.

the hell i care about Filipinos anyway. it's none of my business.. I just want to type something that's all.

right now while doing this, I'm with King Maristela. his a fellow Filipino. of course he sucks..
well king is a good comrade of mine, he laugh at my jokes most of the time, even I'm not telling him a joke he still laugh.. whats wrong with this human? can't he see I'm serious?/ anyway.

I played dota recently, and after that I had a weird conversation with this "shen_bagtas08" (that's her user name at yahoo chat add her if you want ^^)
I don't know her and she don't know me either.. She ask me.. "do I know you?",then I said "nope". . ." you know me?" she replied.. Then I said.. "you're shen bagtas"
Isn't it weird? (at least I hope it does make sense)
well I think you just wasted your precious time reading this. The same on how I wasted my time doing this. hahah. thanks for reading..

oh by the way. unstoppable is the name of the Internet cafe.. I been here since 2nd yr. i think..
ala lng.. thanks for reading.. always remember be wise! be good! and be gone! so long. see ya

The,,,,,,,,

its all save as draft.
you can't read it.
you just waste your time opening this..

march 16, 2009

Hello. This will be the third time I am writing on you mate.. march 16 12:22 am… hmmmm eto ko ngayon. Medyo malungkot nnmn, well medyo Masaya din nmn.. ok lng, na hindi ok.. I have a story, this starts in the chat room. One day , while chatting, I saw this girl.. yeah a girl. At first I just ignore her then I look on her profile and there she got my attention… konte lng nmn. E anu nmn diba/. Ganito kasi ung nangyari.. I just chat in the roo,mm doing my weidyness there, you know.. im kind of a weird.. and I notice that the girl I first mention is t putiing her eyes in my every words.. haha and that’s something. Then ni om ko sya. Sabi ko OI.. hahahaha aun, then reoly nya nmn, what’s with oi? .. haha. Un ung naalala ko sa first part. M napansin ko na nakuha ko ung attention nya.. siguro fahil sa pag tatanong ko ng mga weirdong bagay or something like emotional things.. like, bakit takot ang mga lalaki sa mga magandang babae? Haha, then ang naalala kong reply nya e. kasi takot silang maloko. Diba parang baligtad? Sabi ko.. then vice versa lng daw yun.. .. hmmmm. Ang naisip ko. Is bakit kaya iyun ung sagot nya… then nag reply sya sakin. Muka ba kong manloloko?”sabi nya.. haha. Then ni reply ko.. di ko naisip un a”sigiro un ang tingin mo sa sarili mo?” sa tingin ko tama nga kako. Then yun.. medyo di ko pa pinansin.. then nag ka chat uli kami netong mga next days at may sinabi syang mga bagay something like ….”you owe me mister”.. nasa isip ko nung mga panahon nay un.. waaaaaaa. Wtf etc etcc etc. hahaha.. then sabi nya pa nga sakin.. I’ll make a poem for you. Nag suggest ako. Batman. Sabi ko, kasi natatakot daw sya sakin.. yun. . hilig nya gumawa ng poem nun…. Then nung sumunod na araw, nanag ka chat uli kami, at nagawa nya na daw ung poem.. ako nmn si exited, e nag kataon ln wala net ung ka bord mate ko..( dun lng kasi ako nakikiconnect) kaya luumabas ako ng bahay kahit gabi na.. haha . dun na ko nag umpisang ma baliw.. nab nung nabasa ko ung poem medyo na disappoint ako.. kasi ang corny ng pamagat nung poem.. paran akong king of the jungle.. wahahahaha. Nakakatawa na nakakainis na napprecate ko ung gawa nya.. kasi biruin mo? Pinag aksayahan nya pa ko ng panahon? Para lng gawin ung poem nay un.. hahaha… ewan ko kung anung pumasok sa isip ko at gumawa din ako ng poem at ni post ko dun sa website.. nabsa nya nmn , at natuwa sya.. sa ginawa ko.. kaya at ang sabi nya.. gumawa daw kami ng sequence,, at mag replyan sa poem.. haha.. looks interesting kaya ok lng sakin… nung mga panahon nay un muling nabuhay ang mga dugo ko sa ugat na para bang natunaw na yelo.. umiibig na ko, sa ttaong di ko panmn nakikita sa personal….. wnung mga panahon nha din nayun, nkagawa ko ng poem kahit wala pa ung rreply nya sa poem sequence.. at pinost ko un sa website.. nahalata ng friend nya na may gusto sa kanya na may gusto ako kay mako sa babaeng un…. Un ung kutob ko.. at medyo natagalan bago naka pag reply ng bagong poem si panga.. nung mga araw nay un medyo nababaliw na ko s a kakaisip kung anu na ung nangyayaru… nakaka asar ang daming teorya sa utak ko nun… kasabay pa nun ang pag kagusto rin nung ka bordmate ko na friend ko sa babaeng aking iniibig.. napansin ko, lagi nya tinitignan ung profile sa friendster nung babae,, dun medyo napikon na ko,,…. At wala ding kaalam alam un kupal nay un kung anung nararamdaman ko sa mga pinag gagawa nya.. di nmn interested sa kanya ung gril nun e.. naasar ako kasi, lahat nlng ng Makita nyang pwedeng ligawan, pinopormahan nya….. bullshit!!
Edu un na nga… dumating din ang reply nitong girl na to.. hay sa wakas.. nung nabsa ko… ergghh lalo akong naguluhan… prang binubuksan nya ang pintuan ng pag sasa .. para sa lalaking hangad ay tunay na pag ibig l.. it means everything to me.. tinuluyan nyang tinunaw ang aking puso.. haha at n( bullshit.. eto naka tingin na .. syon bullshit na ka bormate ko ditto sa ginagawa ko at nag kukuwento ng kung anun anu..) hahahah …. Yeah for a guy that is yearning for true love… di ko alam ang mararamdaman ko.. e puro question mark sa ulo ko.. hahahaha.. .. .. .. that means everything to me… ) yeah nakalimutan ko na sasabihin ko kasi kinakausap ako ng mongol nato) at yun nga nag kagusto ko sa kanya.. ng tuluyan. Haha ang sakit sa.. at gumawa na ko ng reply .. un na ang end ng sequence, hangang ngayun.. di parin sya nag susulat ng reply…… dahil sa maraming bagay.. una. Kinuha nya ang number ko. At binalak nya pa kong pag tripan sa txt, na hindi nya nmn nagawa dahil sa aking matalinong sense.. at pangalawa.. nung nung mga araw na yiun.. parang nawawalan na sya ng gana gumawa pa ng reply…… un nga medyo nawalan na sya ng gana… sAhil siguro.. nakita nya na ang friendster ko.. at nag kakatxt narin kami nung mga ataw nay un.. .. ergghh.. di alam netong bordm8 ko na may number ako netong girl.. kaya at tinanong nmn nya sa girl kung anu ung number… edi ako nman si bigay.. para kunwari ala ko gusto dun sa gril… ditto na nag sisimula ng matindi ang sakit…gusting Makita borm8 ko tung girl.. kaya pinilit nya sa txt.. ayun natuloy nga ang pag kikita… sinama pa ko.. alam netong lalaking top na may gusto ko sa girl,, hmm kaya nya daw ako sinnama.. assistant lng daw sya, e nung nag pag katapos naming mag hintay ng ilang oras e sya na ung dumal dal sa babae… bullshit, di ko alam kung anu mararamdaman ko.. matutuwa ba ko o maasar.. biglang nag papogi tung kasama ko… hahah, sinabi ko nlng sa sarili ko ok lng.. may natutunan nmn ako… bullshit…. Ayun tinanong ko ung ril, sa txt , anu tingin nya sakin.. weird daw, nakaktakot, haha di ko sya ma sisi dahil yun nga ung pinakita ko.. medyo kunikirot na may halonh excitement… hahaha at alam nyu ba kun anu nang yari sumunod? Tuluyan nang niligawan ng kasama ko tung babae.. bullshit!! Nasubukan talaga ang pag titimpi ko d2…..nag analyze ako ng mga bagay.. naisip ko.. hayaan ko nlng. Alam ko rin nmn mang yayari e.. sigurado busted yan,,.. birthday ko pa.. haha.. napansin ko tung mongol kong kasama biglanlang nawawala sa comshop. Un pala lagi na pinupuntahan.. ya right… bullshiit talga you know?.. dumaan ang mga araw di parin nag reply ng poem si babae…. Bagsak na bagsak na ko… medyo pinag aralan ko ang sitwasyin,,,,.. naisip ko , di maganda ang mag drama, let go nlng, at matutup nlng sa mga bagay na nang yayari…. Di ko alam.. sigiro natakot lng ako ako ipag laban .. hahah.. sa tingin ko hinde. Dahil eto ang pinakamagandang paaan na naisip kooo.. play safe….. just learn.. para mabawasan ang sakit, nag sasabi ako ng mga emotional things sa mga taong malalapit sakin…. A nakita ko.. ung mga malalapit ko pang kaibigan, di nmn ako naintindihan. Parang nag iba ung tingin nila sakin… naisipip ko .. hmmp. Bata pa sila, hayaan ko nlng.. lumipad lumidad ang aj=king mga imahinasyon… saka ko nlng ituloy masyado ng mahaba….
1:20PM tama nga ang kutob ko.. mababasted din to si mongol… ayun pinayuhan ko sya ng aking mga nalalaman… huh. Nagulat ako sa sarili ko.. naka pag move on nap la ako.. haha. Medyo nawala ang sakit.. at pinag tatawanan ko tung kasama ko… at naalala ko kung gaano ko kagusto tong babae.. haha… . sa di inaasahang pag kakataon.. sa mga ginawa kong payo at pasya.. napag batik o sila.. wenks.. eto bumalik nmnm ung sakit… bullshoit.. kelangan ko uli magi sip ng bagong plano… at bagong purposre.. kung bakit gusto ko mag plano.. pasensya .. medyo di ko na ikwento lahat.. katiting llng to… saka di ko nababasa ng tunatytypr ko e. 1:24pm

february 9 2008. march 4 , 2009

February 09, 2009 9:50 PM
Nandito ako sa bording haus at kakatapos ko lng gumag laro ng battle realms. Haha ang galling ko may naisip akong bagong paraan para di nila mbasa ang sinusulat ko kahit nakatingin sila at nanonood sa likod ko habang ako ay nag susulat ng kaputang inahang ewan….
Bakit ako nag susulat?? E kasi gaya ng iba wala akong mapaglibangan. same reason lng.. haha gusto kong isulat ang aking saloobin.. well nagugulluhan ako sa mga nang yari sa king buhay nitong mga nakaraang mga araw.. dahil sa mga aking natuklasan sa internet ,, na expose ako sa ibatibang mga paniniwala ng mga tao sa ibat ibang panig ng munso. Nabasa ko ang kanilang mga saloobin at binago neto ang aking mga nakaugaliang paniwalaan este pinaniniwalaan… pasensya na hindi ko kasi mabasa tong sinusulat ko kaya di ko alam kung tama ba tung mga napipindot ko.. ginawa ko kasing 1 ung font para di mabasa ninuman ang sinusulat ko.. hehehehehe
Anyway about sa mga ibat ibang paniniwalang nabangit ko kanina…. Aahh. Wla pa plla akong nababangit .. tungkol to sa ating mga nakaugalian .. .. pinanga a eeeekkkk
Pinanganak tayu sa mundo na ito at tinuruan n gating mga magulang at natuto sa paaralan ng mga kung anuanung mga bagay na ngayon ay bumubuo sa ating mga katauhan.. pero natanung nyu bas a mga sarili nyu kung totoo ba tung mga bagay na ating pinaniniwalaan? O kinalakihan?? Kung nabuhay ka sa ibang situation? Sigurado iba rin ang paraan ng pag iisip m diba???/
Bakit ba tayu nabubuhay?? Bakit tayu nilikha?? Ang sabi nila for the sake of lovee daw.. sabi nmn nung iba . dahil mahal tayu ng diyos amang makapang yarihan sa lahat na lumalang ng langit at lupa….. ung iba mnmnm sabi e we live or we exist for a purpose.. e ang sagot ko nmn WTF is that purpose??? Sabi nmn nila itt depends on the person sabay binalik ung tanong sakin." it depends on the person. e ikaw bakit ka ba nagexist?" Mali pla “”ganto pla e kaw anu ba opprupose mo?? Este malieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee di ko kasi mabasa e maya ko nlng I edit o di ko na I edit wala rin nmn tong silbe e….
Well nabuhay tayu kasi nag sex ang mga m nanay at tatay natin diba???? Kya ka ipinanganak.. hahahah. Wala talgang kwenta.. bakit ba ko ginugulo ng mga gantong klaseng mga thoughts … lagi nlng akong na ddisappoint sa aking buhay .. kapag may nakamit akong tagumpaay iniisip ko na normal lng yun.. kapag nmn nabigo ako sa isang bagay pakiramdam ko napaka tanga ko na isa akong walang kwenta.. nkkaka dipress tlaga ang mga ganung bagay…

Isa pang gumugulo sakin ay ang ang society na na aking ginagaawaan.. bakit ganto ang uri n gating pamumuhay .. “” gaya nun bakit ba napaka pakialamero ng mga tao d2 ,, nakitang may ginagawa ko e biglang eentra at titingin tapos nung di nya mabasa ung tnatype ko talagang ikinatutuk pa sa monitor ang muka sabay banat ng “” hanep sa trip”” ay nakao kupal… pinag aksayahan ko pa ng ng panahon ung ginawa nya..
nKkRUQnf`iaipi n My free will tayu pero di natin pwedeng gawin bastabasta nlng ang mga bagay na nais nating gawin… dahil sa mga batas, rules etc.etc… waaa nasan na bakoo


well ahhmmm what else can I say.. meron din akong isang reklamo sa aking buhay bakit ang panget ko.. well its not a big deal nmn ,, kasi minsan gwapo din nmn ako hahaha. Wala pa nga akong nagging girl friend sa buhay ko .. sa txxt meron pero txt lng un,, hindi ko nga sya ni meet para ko lng sinubukan kong kayak o e ang dali lng pla.. hahaha siguru ang panget nun ka txt ko naun kaya bumigay xa sa mga simpleng pag tawag at pagttxt lng .. sineryoso nya kali ako?? Sa pra ala ekkk
ngayon nag pplano ko na mag karoon ng girlfriend kaya lng pinangungunahan ako ng pangamba na ma reject kapag sinubukan kong makipag usap … starting a conversation is a hard thing for me, kasi di ako nasanay na makipag usap sa mga ibang tao este sa kapwa tao.. nakakausap ko lng na mga tao e ung mga classmate ko saka ung mga lets say friends … sa tingin ko normal lng din nmn siguru un, Masayado lng talaga akong negative,, oo isa kong negative thinker nasubukan ko ng baguhin un pero bumalik nnmn ako sa pagigigng negative.. hahah

waaa 10:20 na napakabilis lng dumaan sa utak ng mga ganitong klaseng mga salita.. pero kung isusulat mo e medyo mahaba din pla.. hahahah isa talaga akong napaka tamad na tao. Sinubukan kong mgaing masipag pero ganun din nmn kahit anung gawinn mo sa buhay ganun din ang labas nun pareho lng…. Mag tagumpay ka man o mabigo ganun din un.. pareho lng .. naiba lng sa pakiramdam.. sayong pakiramdam at sa mga taong malapit sayo na naiimpluwensayahanmo… kahit anung mang yari mamatay ka man ngaun o mamatay ka bukas ganun din un diba??? Parehas lng na namatay ka.. san ba nag kaiba?? Sa mga nagawa m pa sana??? Parehas lng iba???
Lagi ko nlng niloloko ang sarili ko.. ngaun tuloy nahihirapan na akong tukuyin ang dapat at hindi dapat , sa tama at mali.. sa wasto at di wasto.. bakit??!! Sino bang naka imbento ng mga bagay nay un??? Tama mali?? Sabihin nyu diyos?? E bakit??? Panu nyu nman nlman?? E kasi nakasulat sa bibilia??? E anu nmn ?? nabasa ko ung bibile well di ko pa nmn tapos basahin.. di ko nmn sinasabing di ako naniniwala pero ahhmmm… ang gulo. W88
Wahahahahahah di ko mabasa.. ok lng ganto nmn talaga ko paibaibang naiisip. Siguro ganun din nmn kau diba??? Ewan ko lng ahh.. mahalaga bay un??? Malay ko ba?? Siguru mababa lng talaga ug tinatawag na I.QQ ko kayak o ganto? Sa tingin m??? ha?? Bakit kayak o nag kakaganto.. gustu kong malaman ang katuotohan an THE TRUT!!!..
Madaming mga tao wala nmn pakialam sa mundo. Kagaya ko siguru,, sa paraan ko ng pag sasalita kung minsan di ko talaga masabi kung anung gs2 kong sabihin.. ang resulta maasar ako kapag iba ang reaksyon ng kausap ko sa ineexxpext kong magging reaksyon nya.. pasensya na sa mga mali kng spelling?? Ah? Kasi di ko to iiedit . wala kong pakiaalam basta. Isususlat ko lng este ittype ko lng.. hahaha ang saya mag sulat ng font mo e 1. Di ko mabasa . pati sila di nila mabasa.. atleast ditto kapag may daan ng daan sa likod ko e ndi na sila mag tatangkang basahin paa. Wahahahah..
Sa pagiging tao natin meron lng tayun ilang oras para mabuhay sa mundo na to diba?? Malas mo pa kapag naaksidente ka o kaya pinanganak kang may kapansanan. Etc etc. life is unfair talga ditto sa mundo na to diba?? Pero sabin nung iba its all in your thoughts daw.. … it will depend on whats in your thought kung anu ung mga bagay na ma aatract mo.. sigurumay katotohanan malay natin..
Ok 10:35 na. at tinatamad na ko ngaun anu nmnng gagawin ko sa sinulat ko na to?? Siguru peede ko tong ilagay sa internet hahahahha saka nlng di ko nga alam un e.. alam kop la un tawag nila dun blog diba??? Mga puru kaputang inahang mga pianag susulat ng mga kung anung anau tapos ilalagay sa internet.. para ma I para san. Para san nga ba?> basta ibat ibang dahilan diba??? Siguru ko kapag gumawa ko nun ang reasn ko trip lng.. pra mabaawasan tong sakit na nararamdaman ko.. at para makilala ko rin kung sino ko..
Kasi lagi ko di nmn lagi… ahhmm nakakalimutang m rin nmn ung mga bagay na naisip m nadati diba??? .. hahah la kwenta .. epero ok lng. Wala nmn akong pakiaalam sa mga nararamdaman nyu e. bakitko ba kelangan poblemhain pa un.. mag ka gf kayak o ng mganda sa gantong attitude ko…. Ung mga magaganda kasing babaeng nakikita ko e , ang gusto nila ung mga gwapo ,madaldal ,lagi silang kinankausap,.. mga lalaking mag take care sa kanila .. hahahha mga pusong mammon.. .. well ,edyo naasar ako kasi di ako madalas ganun…sino kaya mag kakagusto sa isang katuladdd ko.. well meon din nmn mga nag kakagusto.. kaya lng un ung mga babaeng di ko nmn gs2.. hayysss nakakaaaasaarr.. di din nmn dapat lagi kau nag kakagustuhan diba??
Ltinatamad na ko kaya lng auko tapusin ng ganto lng to.. ganto ko nlng tatapusin.. bakit kaya ganun/?? Ay alam ko rin pla kung bakit.. pero omewaht di ko run alam .. ngek.. basta wala ko pakialam sau kung sino ka man mag basa neto.. well kungmeron man.. wala rin nmn interesadiong mag basa ng ng isang losers blog diba… e anun nmn.. ahhhmmm ahhhhh ehhhh.. life must go on!! BANXZZAII!!! E2 na ko earth humanda kau sakin..!!





March 4 , 2009

haha nakakatwa pla ako dati.... nakalimutan ko na ganito nga pla ako... hahah... teka nakakatwa to diba?? in the loser's heart...
gusto ko lagyan ng continuation.. eto isang buwan din ang nakaraan ng isunulat ko ung mga nasa taas... ngaun naiisip ko... parang ang bilis ko mag bago nung naisulat ko lhat ng un.... hmmmm... alam nyu? fuck you kayung lahat.. bakit ba ko mag papaliwanag..
saka nlng siguro.... pag wala ng............waht? eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.. ok. ang bobo..

ganito kasi storya ng dalawang lingong buhay ko.. kung bakit nnmn ako nag kakaganito.. may nakilala akong girl dyan sa chat.. sa lounge... ala lng, lagi lng akong tambay dun. nun

december 29, 2008

hello,
its december 23, 2008 10:09am at nandito ako sa aming kwarto sa bahay bakasyunan sa kabundukan ng kinaragan.
bagot na bagot na ako, akala ko kaya kong magsaya mag isa pero akala ko lng yo dahil dumadating talaga sa buhay ng tao ang matinding kalungkutan. hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nag kakaganito marahil alam ko rin pero niloloko ko sarili ko.
naisip ko mag sulat para mailabas ko itong sama ng loob ko. pede namang umutot nlng ako pero di ako nauutot, pwede rin namang tumae nlng ako pero tinatamad ako dahil walang timba at tabo sa aming palikuran dito sa second floor at nakakatamad bumaba. anyways kya talaga ako nag sulat ay dahil nga sa tinatamad ako alam ko walang kabuluhan to pero baka meron.
madaming gumugulo sa isip ko. kahit ngayung bakasyon iniisip ko parin ang mga assignment namin sa school. e ano ngayon.
gaya nga nang nsabi ko madami akong problema gaya ng pagiging bigo sa pag ibig pagiging panget at bobo pakiramdam ko naliligaw na ko ng landas. e anu nmn. nakakaasar talga bakit hindi ko maisulat ang mga bagay na aking nararamdaman. asar na asar na ko sa sarili ko.. siguru masyado lng akong nag eexpect ng mataas sa mga bagay bagay.

mali, dapat nag pakilala muna ko. tawagin mo nlng akong tiger snake ang lupet ng pangalan no parang amine.. 19 years old na ko ngaun at malapit na kong mag 20 sa marso at wala akong girlfriend. does it realy matter?? ewan, pero parang ganon na nga. dati nung bata pa ko kaya kong maging masaya khit ako lng. di ko kailangan ng kaibigan, masaya na ko kahit taong bahay lang. di ako lumalabas dahil msaya nmn kahit sa bahay lng. well syempre may mga kaibigan din ako sa school nuung elementary, mga kaklase ko din sila nuun. nag gagala lagi kami sa tabing dagat at msaya kaming mga bata noon. hangang sa nag kahiwalay na kami nitong high school. may mga naging crush din ako noong elementary pero hangang duun nlng yon, haha! ang bobo ko e torpe pa. naalala ko nga nung grade 5 kami meron nag ka crush sakin na grade 6, hehehe asteg no?!
at na inlove din ako sa kanya, yung tipong parang lagi kung gustong manood ng love story, lagi kong kayakap ung unan ko sa pag tulog at lagi narin ako nag papapogi sa salamin. pero hangan doon nlng yun dahil gaya nga nang sinabi ko torpe ako. naasar ako pag naalala ko ang mga araw na yun hangang sulyap lng kaming dalawa tuwing recess buwisit mxado kong naging mahiyain. sinabi sakin nang mga classmate ko noon na gustu daw akong makausap nung crush ko na may crush din sakin. at anung ginawa ko? ayun nag tatakbo hinabol ako ng mga kaklase ko pero di nila ko napilit na lumapit sa babaeng minsan ay aking inibig haha.. at hangang sa gumaraduate na sya at naging grade 6 na ko.. walang kwenta nakakaasar. pero di pa ko nakaramdam ng sakit sa pagibig noong mga panahon nayun, siguro mrahil batang pag ibig lng un (crush crush lng)..

haha tanga biglang naging story of my boring love life to a. di nmn dapat eto ung isusulat ko e. wala di ko akalaing mhaba pala ung explanation ng isang nakakaasar na emotion... cguru dapat i kwento ko narin ung high school life ko? next time nlng siguro gaya ng nasabi ko tamad akong tao.. andami kong pwedeng pag kalibangan, but i think i cant feel my nerves today.agghhh !ewan !! ... (10:50AM dec 23, 2008)..

For you.............

one night, too much silence cause me to rise from bed. I felt fear out of nowhere. The emptiness and a slow bit rate of my heart. . Fear of death perhaps?.. I decided to go out and see whats outside, then I look side by side and above. he he. All of the sudden I feel there's nothing to be afraid of... And someone bothered my mind that day. . . . oh I mean that night...Amazed by the sight and In thinking what to do,. . . In describing what happened . this words entered my mind:

"
In the abyss,
awaken by the music of the night
Turned my fear into a great excite.
By seeing this lovely scenery,
That fulfilled this empty insight...

I wish you could see this to, as I’m truly longing for you.
There are lots of things that I need to do
And again I'll dedicate this only for you…
I’m here as always..
And I will seek you in wandering ways...

Freezing in this humidity…
Am I at the state of stupidity?
Standing here looking up,
Huh? You truly hook me up!
Snapped out from this conscience,
Now it’s time to get back in bed.
"

The Stars...










cheese.. *_-
corn
and mushy

I often laugh at those people who makes this kinds of stuff...
and I laugh at myself...And people often laugh at me.
and they don't know that I also laugh at them..
and everyone is laughing at their selves...
how nice. -_-

I wonder how the ancient civilizations spare their free time during days of inactivity...


I'm not an emo! for craps sake!
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